Writing Zazen

Tuesday, 29 May 2007

Competition with myself

Filed under: Card a Day — Silent Warrior @ 6:20 pm

Tuesday 7:07pm 29May07

Well, I’ve missed quite a few days of pulling cards. My most recent card was the 5 of wands (Universal Waite). The image immediately makes me think about competition. I’m not feeling like I’m competing against anyone so decided to look at competing with myself. Looking at ways to improve what I’m doing. Or doing more today than I did yesterday.

It’s always a battle to get some kind of consistency and balance. Competing with others never motivates me to do more. But competing with myself? That has magic.

Christin Snyder who has a couple yahoo groups has started a blog with Tarot info.
all things tarot.

Her interpretation of the five of wands:
“Card: Five of Wands
Simple Interpretation: Inner conflict, turmoil, possible conflict or confrontations in the workplace or family, a need for compromise, a need for more clarity or to get clear on what ones true goal is. battles between heart/head”

I have to admit that I am battling between my heart and my head. Stuck in that caring for something and thinking of all the reasons why it would be safer for me not to care.

Check out her blog, it’s looking like it will be a good one.

SW

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4 Comments »

  1. Your post gave me an inkling of insight into my own work habits. I’m far more productive when competing with others. I am such a competitive person, I’ve been known to come to blows over pool-games, Warhammer 40K, even Connect4. One day I will go to jail when a game of Scruples goes horribly wrong. People will say, “She didn’t have too many scruples, eh?”

    I think in many ways thats why I’ve felt so at a loss recently. I lost my main competition (right around the time of that hissy-fit I had). When I was writing with my ex-husband, I not only had a number 1 fan who worshipped my writing as godlike, but I also had a competitor. I wanted to out-think him, out-work him, out-create him. I want to write better, write more, and come up with the best ideas.

    Remember the blogathon? I had to finish – I couldn’t bear to lose, no matter how tired I was. And nanowrimo got me really pumped. Its too bad those things aren’t running 365 days out of the year. They’d really get my ass in gear.

    I’m very lucky that I still have my ‘rough muse’, but some days it takes more than an abrasive and rude homunculus to get me writin’. I really need to find more ways to motivate myself.

    Anyway, sorry for the long rambling comment, and thanks for the insight!

    Comment by Che — Wednesday, 30 May 2007 @ 4:56 pm

  2. Oh Che, you are too funny. Game of scruples going horribly wrong!
    There is a contest that starts on Friday called script frenzy. Same as nanowrimo
    Yes I remember the blogathon, that’s how we met!
    Ramble away, Lord knows I’ve had my moments on your blog and never as funny!
    SW

    Comment by Silent Warrior — Wednesday, 30 May 2007 @ 5:53 pm

  3. Thanks for the link! I’m considering it, but I figger it might end up more a distraction than productive. Then again, I might get something surprising out of the effort, so I may well go for it.

    And I had to come over here and use the word ‘figger’ on your blog. I felt it was called for.

    Comment by Che — Wednesday, 30 May 2007 @ 7:25 pm


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