Writing Zazen

Tuesday, 3 April 2007

Nervous Energy

Filed under: Daily Practice — Silent Warrior @ 6:23 pm

Tuesday 7:10pm 3Apr07

Now I’m sitting here at my desk. Still sweating from my brisk walk. Using exercise to harness my nervous energy. Impatience shrouds my thoughts making me restless. I walk down to the water and back home knowing that once I’m finished I’ll be calmer and ready to sit down and write.

I throw my crazy thoughts in the lake like skipping stones. And power walk back home free for a few more hours. I don’t know why it’s so hard to get over what I need to get over but the up side is that it’s getting me off my ass to work out. My thoughts are a few more steps on my pedometer. That’s something to count on.

I admit to wanting to get to the good parts of my life. Not like this is the worst thing that’s ever happened to me. It’s far more manageable than anything I’ve been through or what some people are going through now. But we are selfish beings aren’t we? We only really know or care about our own existence, if the truth be known. We do anything to distract ourselves from the so-called bad emotions and barely enjoy the good ones when we have them.

Looking forward to the rain that the thunder is currently announcing. I hope it pours all night and there’s a cool breeze blowing through my window while I sleep underneath my electric blanket. I hope the rain is a symbol of my mind being cleansed and tomorrow is a new day and my attitude is optimistic again. I wish I could hear the words I want to hear out of the mouth I want to hear them from. Or at the very least I wish I could stop caring.

SW

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2 Comments »

  1. How did you get the techniques to write ““Nervous Energy Writing
    Zazen”? Thanks for your time -Blanche

    Comment by Lydia — Wednesday, 20 February 2013 @ 7:01 pm

  2. Thanks for visiting Blanche!
    Sheesh I was kind of thrilled to re-read that entry because I forgot about how that sort of writing really has helped me in the past and I’m going to go back to it.
    It is stream of consciousness writing and it’s all about relaxing yourself, then listening to everything that’s around you, then writing.
    Here’s the link to my blog with the exercise. https://piscesdragon.wordpress.com/2007/01/08/30-ways-to-help-you-write/
    And thanks again for visiting.

    Comment by Silent Warrior — Thursday, 21 February 2013 @ 12:01 am


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